Apologising to ourselves
Where to start. The pressure that we as parents put on ourselves is quite simply extraordinary. Are you doing a good enough job? Are our children advancing enough? Do they sleep, eat, poo, talk or read enough?
A constant for me at the moment is asking whether my little boy is well behaved enough. It is very easy to make comparisons between your children and others. I look around me at a birthday party, as my nearly two year old is in the throws of a tantrum, because another child dare to touch the Little Tikes police car he has been sat in for the last 15 minutes, and think to myself 'huummm, have a I brought him up wrong?'. What did I do differently to all the other parents whose children know how to share?
I have done nothing wrong, I know that but that doesn't stop me scolding myself. After a busy day with the little man, I look forward to him going to bed. Then I feel guilty for feeling that. You know what I mean right? The guilty, the worry, the constant questioning of 'am I doing this right'.